10/31/11

Well, I guess I should say it like it is. I feel like shit, absolute shit, broken and useless. I've uttered words that I can't take back, and a part of me has died, i feel incomplete. Maybe I'll be able to mend time somehow, if not, just learn how to cope. Time heals all wounds, but the required time is unknown. Well thats enough of me talking, I've got class to attend.

10/29/11

Well this is pretty much gonna be inactive from now on. I dont really like writing on here as is, but i have things to sort out.

10/23/11

Not really in the mood to blog so here is just a placeholder.

10/19/11 D'Yer Maker

I dont know how I managed to keep writing this, blogging isnt something i'm frequent at, or good at, but I keep thinking of a comment that someone once told me that if I could blog, I could show commitment, and I want to prove that to them. Its now 10/20/11, since im slow at writing these. I'm somewhat tired, but dont want to sleep, head hurts, with i still had some endocet left over from the ER, but that ran out last week. I feel like shit, I seem to cause trouble where trouble isnt needed, and end up causing more problems than I began with. Now im pulling my memories together to explain my life to Fen, since i seem to be quiet about my past. Tomorrow I have chem lab and a test to study for, maybe I'll survive this week after all

10/14/11

I know i haven't posted over the past few days, but I've been a bit busy, and dont really have much to say. This weeks been busy, midterms are coming. Today I get to do nothing, which I love so much, just to step back from it all. So just gonna take a break and game for a bit, then get prepped for my fossil dig tomorrow, which should be really fun, tho its gonna be a giant mud pit :/ Well thats all for today.

10/11/11

So it being my only day without classes this week, I decided to be productive....well, at least try to. I did finish most of my work, just need a touch up on a lab report, and i did get to a lecture required for bio. Didn't get a chance to do some running, which I wish i did. Feel like im obsessing a bit on paintball, but its one of those things that I dont get to do every so often, so when the opportunity shows up, im raring to go. But first, I have to survive classes, and another chemistry test, which will be the end of me it feels like.

10/10/11

Just as fen said, we've been together for 8 months, and I've loved him every day since I said yes. Well I havent said much recently in this blog, dunno waht I was supposed to say. Well im back into the rut known as school, which has been busy, figures. Starting to run a bit more, want to get my cardio up back for paintball, which I know is a month away, im still really excited for it, its so much fun to me. Well, thats all really for today.

10/5/11

Been busy with school again, really not much to say. Tired, not thinking properly, sucks alot.

10/3/11

Just a daily post today, talking to fen alot after finishing two exams which I do average on. More work tomorrow.

10/2/11

This has been the most uneventful day ever, only slept and did homework, nothing else. :/

10/1/11

Really enjoyed today, tho I wasn't sure if I was gonna make it this morning, felt kinda sick. I did go to New York and the Museum of Natural History, which was really fun, I enjoy going up there, its enjoyable to me. Basically walked around the town for a few hours and just got home, so im gonna pass out now.

9/30/11 The collective

So heres to my first full day back in school, tho it wasnt that complete, with the absence of basically the whole week, I feel so behind, tho I am really not. Fortunately I have sunday to complete this work and catch up on rest. Tomorrow I have class in New York City, which should be fun. Fens acting a bit wierd, and now I'm off to play some games.

9/28/11

I'm tired, sick, and drugged out of my mind. Its been an eventful week, I've been to only one class at this time since monday. Since then, I've been sitting in ER and in a hospital room hooked up to various machines and iv's. Which was boring as hell, seriously one of the worse experiences i've ever had. And today I've been so tired and out of it to actually get any work done. Fen's been nice enough to stay with me through the entire ordeal, tho I dont think hes actually slept, still was nice of him to keep me company.

9/25/11

This has been the most uneventful day in history for me, lack of sleep mixed with the fact i have stomach ulcers or something, so when I am awake, im curled up in a ball in pain. Basically woke up at 2 am and was in incredible discomfort, and that's how its been since then. Fen was nice enough to put up with my random texting from when I'd wake up and then pass out again. Probably going to sleep soon since i could use it.

9/24/11 Lullabies to Paralyze

Supposed to write a blog entry last night, and it kinda slipped my mind. So here I am today, so glad to be home right now and not in my dorm. This is basically just a mellow out day for me, which at this point is awesome. I'm tired right now, didnt sleep well so much last night. I better be able to stay awake for my gaming event later today. Ummm thats really about all I have to say, mind isnt function so I cant really tell you what im thinking...

9/22/11

I'm mentally and physically exhausted today. I've been doing hw since 1030 this morning, which has been a stack of lab reports and various other science things. As well as dropping my math class for my health and fighting to add on a class to keep my scholarships. Which has basically been the entirety of my day, I'm burned out and need a rebreather, now with math out of the way I can focus on my science more and spend less time frustrated. I'm getting a shorter temper, and its bad, I really just want to curl up under a blanket and sleep for the next few days, nothing else, just...sleep. With the lack of a math class taking up 14 hours a week, this also means I have a bit more free time to myself as well, which gives me the options of having people visit, since my replacement course doesnt start til November anyway. Thats basically it for now, cause i have to go study for a biology quiz.

9/21/11 2 minutes late

Well its been a rough day, tired and trying to clear my mind right now. Just alot of school work and its getting to me, have to drop my math now cause im basically on overload, and I was at my breaking point. I feel alot better than before, which is good, calm, and a bit more myself. Tomorrow should be interesting, tho I cant wait for the weekend at this point.

9/20/11 AHHHHHHH

Well, today has been, to say the least, long. Have been studying school work for the past 6 hours, still have to finish a quiz and a prelab, plus math hw, so im gonna be here for a bit longer. Talking to Fen has helped, keeping my sanity in place, and on track to get this done. Now just some brief time for a break, and back to work, basically I wont be able to properly rest until the weekend. v_v

Dont know if I can keep writing like this

My heart hurts, feels like someone ripped out a piece of it. I've been basically a train wreck all day, going from just sad to verge of tears. I really don't know how to say this, but I'll try. The one I'm in love with hasn't been seeing eye to eye with me lately. Nor have we really talked much the past few days, since we got into a fight on Thursday. And I've been a mess since, I've only spoken to him from two texts, other than that, nothing, I dont know how this day is going to end, but I wish it would end for the better.

Uhhh *insert title*

Saturday has been pretty good for the most part. Basically hung out with some friends and went on a hike, which hopefully can be written off as Extra Credit for science. And have basically hung out for the afternoon. I know this isn't a lengthy post, but this is really all that has happened today.

:P

Todays been pretty good, I got to sleep in, which I needed after 13 hours of school. And with only one class today, I had plenty of time to get my work done. I'm getting energetic now, maybe I've finally fully awaken, listening to music and moving about. Other than school work, I haven't been very productive, but thats fine, the weeks almost over.

Stilll trying to get a hang of this...

So failing to post yesterday, im not getting into the habit like I am supposed to, not to mention that im not a writing person. Doing this now cause I don't know when I will have free time later today, basically sitting in class for 8 hours within 13 hours, so basically, a long day. I'm already tired, and will prolly finish tonight, and sleep til whenever. Wouldn't mind doing something else, but school doesnt really give me that luxury. Maybe tomorrow I can paint the few models that I brought up from home that I need to finish, tho that would mean I need like an hour to just do that. Its a nice way for me to just de-stress, tho I wouldn't mind right now to de-stress by just lying in bed and cuddling with a certain special someone. Well thats about it for me

So.....

So I don't know really where to start, a close friend recommended that I made my own blog. Maybe I'll figure out what to say, other that this is basically my first post.